RUSHED

Ellerslie left it all behind. The pain, the heartbreak, the anger&hellip, I was an idiot. I sighed in defeat. &ldquo,I know he&rsquo,s an asshole Q. I really do. But I don&rsquo,t know how to forget him. I don&rsquo,t want him in my life, not ever again&hellip, but I miss the future that our relationship should have had, if he were different that is. I should have been planning a future with him. It should have been my next step, I should be expecting a child with my loving husband&hellip, but I&rsquo,m not. And now I don&rsquo,t think it will ever be on the cards for me.&rdquo, The last thing El is looking for is love, and she&rsquo,s especially not prepared to get caught up in her best friends hotter than hell big brother. I felt my mouth hang open as I turned to look at him. The air between us crackled with tension, sexual and otherwise. But before I could even come up with some witty remark to throw back at him, he took a couple of steps towards me. He was so close I could smell him. Lawson doesn&rsquo,t give a fuck about love. It&rsquo,s the absolute last thing on his mind. &ldquo,From that moment on, I decided love was a load of shit. Commitment? Fucking ridiculous. Feelings? Unnecessary. I became a heartless bastard who wanted nothing more than casual encounters with plenty of women.&rdquo, I felt El flinch, but I carried on, she needed to hear it. &ldquo,For the last ten years, I haven&rsquo,t had anything other than a series of meaningless fucks. I&rsquo,ve never developed any feelings towards a single woman I&rsquo,ve been with. There was never any difference between any of them.&rdquo, She&rsquo,s heartbroken and stubborn. He&rsquo,s wounded and proud. The last thing either of them is prepared for is finding that once in a lifetime, fairy-tale love. &ldquo,You are the difference Ellerslie. The only difference.&rdquo,