HOW TO LIVE WHEN YOU COULD BE DEAD

Deborah James has captured the heart of the nation' - The Duke and Duchess of Cambridge @KensingtonRoyal 'Brave, bright, beautiful' - Lorraine Kelly 'Deborah's ability to find positivity in the darkest of places is an inspiration to us all' - Davina McCall 'This book has shaken me awake. I gulped it down in one sitting, then sat and cried... [But] hope is a character on every single page' - Christie Watson I was alive when I should have been dead. In another movie, I missed the sliding door and departed this wondrous life long ago. Like so many others, I had to learn to live not knowing if I have a tomorrow, because, statistically, I didn't. At the age of 35, I was blindsided by incurable bowel cancer - I was given less than an 8 per cent chance of surviving five years. Five years later, my only option was to live in the now and to value one day at a time. How do you turn your mind from a negative spiral into realistic and rebellious hope? How do you stop focusing on the why and realise that 'why not me' is just as valid a question?